Peace

 I am an intellectual. I think, introspect and analyze. This habit of mine makes bonding with someone very difficult. Being overtly critical, I find it impossible to have lasting relationships.
I found that most people have a very superficial thought process. Their talking was shallow, beliefs  were contradicting, and they were never in command of their emotions. They always blamed the circumstances, fate, people and anything else, for their misfortunes and unhappiness. They were not in control. 
“ Don’t be happy that you are intelligent. You have to deal with every other Idiot who is not. “
 This sentences totally applied to me. So I started withdrawing form people. My circle became smaller and smaller. Later I began avoiding people. I was happy with my being alone.
But in my day to day life I had to interact with people: Something which I could not avoid.
So every time someone  spoke to me, my temples started smarting in pain. And I had constant headaches. I took some pain killers, and got relief. But I realized the answer was not in medicines, but it was a change in my attitude. Love is intense. But, criticism is fourfold more intense. And these types of self righteous feelings were destroying my inner peace.
So I have shifted to a more accepting mind set. People will be of all types. Who am I to judge? Accepting the fact provided great relief. I have come to terms with the great variety in creation. Each person is different. They are not me. This simple understanding, has ushered peace in my life.
More than love and kindness, understanding brings peace. 


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